Q10. Do you know what you want out of life?
This question is difficult to answer when I’m constantly reminded that I don’t want to be 70 years old. I don’t want to be 65, but I’m giving myself a five year buffer in case I’m wrong and need to readjust my assessment later. The attempt to take daily gratitude serious is hard. I think about it, but forget to make a deposit. The act is not yet truly being done by me. It is more about following a positive suggestion. I have my container and objects in a visible and convenient location. Close by is the repository of ‘gratitudes in waiting.’ I keep one with me at all times like a worry stone or fidget toy. An understanding is the practice can pull in more positivity, which can lead to life improvement and wellness.
Want out of life?
Wanting needs to be about possible.
Hopes & Dreams are about fantasy.
In junior high (1976), a time of physical abuse, I was incredibly unhappy. However, I made a pact with myself that I would not commit suicide then. I would tough it all out until I graduated from 8th grade. Maybe high school would be better or different. Then high school started. Not what I’d hoped. I don’t know at what point I reevaluated the pact. I decided I would not commit suicide until I graduated from high school. I endured. After HS graduation, the self pact was updated one more time. I would take no direct action until I graduated from college. I guess I did pretty good. I didn’t attempt suicide until February 2019.