Max wakes me up; getting into pig playpen, pawing at my things, jumping on me – but not to cuddle; pig is chewing his cardboard Mountain Dew tunnel
figure out the current message of what is still true vs what is new
guilt mixed with fear of abandonment or fear of rejection
Struggling to perform at work – doing nothing, tasks don’t match the priority
All the different ways to feel sad:
1. there is no one
2. there are people, but I pay them
3. there are people, but they are not enough
4. there are people paid/not paid where there is a latch onto the hope
5. there are people who become obsession