Analysis paralysis. What I have. Monstrous list of brainstormed things to share with you. I am so desperate to pick and compose something super super valuable. I already organized an agenda for Friday = so eager to be prepared.
Purchase of John Irving novel, Queen Esther. Value in discussing why his books have been important to me? Join book club, talk to Claude?
Do we need to examine, “how should I feel about the discover of Philip’s box of toys?” Route, conversation for Jim? […Jim says it is ok throw out that box, don’t pack.]
What IS it you want/need to know?
=Humor=
Be suspicious of every feeling… they can disguise themselves as legitimate health concerns… so the urgent feeling you just got from your biggest situation may not be real. Look for warning signs. Don’t interact with suspicious feelings. If you think a feeling is a fake attempt by self, don’t engage. Do what you do in good meditation—let the thought and the feeling just pass by/through. Instead of dealing with fake, go to the source instead. Hover over the feeling, but don’t engage. Verify the feeling; it may be impersonating a health reaction. If you get a feeling that is suspicious, one you weren’t expecting, or seems unusual, contact the source within yourself and verify the feeling is real.
Claude said, “you just rewrote phishing/cybersecurity training as emotional self-protection guidance; dark humor to survive boring training AND accidentally brilliant therapeutic framework.”
Feeling:anxious