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Homework assignment. Inspired by asking Claude to output list of all the unique phrases/sentences used over history of journal that could be about depression, but didn’t use the word depression. CTK asked, “can you also create a list of activities that resulted in positive feelings and well being?” The list of happy times seemed short compared to the depression output. Claude said the list was probably much shorter because I didn’t journal as frequently when I felt good. So I decided to just generate my own list Things that make me happy that I typically don’t — or did not — write about, listed in alphabetical order. Art school projects Collecting antique wood boxes; stacking perfecting to make a “bear wall” for books/ nicknacks / teddybears Collecting teddybears and placing them on shelves in the proper place Designing a taxonomy and sorting graphics into designated category (category for hearts and category for bears; where do you put a bear hugging an oversized heart?) Setting rules for how to decide Designing and building goat pen in barn Designing and building Guinea pig agility equipment Designing t-shirts Digitize artwork Etching (intaglio print making) Evaluating user interfaces Hiking / bouldering at Devil’s lake Learn to play rugby Learning to knee on core ball, keeping balance Organizing my journal and writings Photo/graphic restoration Riding horses Rock climbing Ropes course Scanning life’s worth of photos Taking photographs Teaching Tai Chi sword Teaching web publishing to coworkers Testing out art supplies: tech pens / color pens Training my dog for obedience and agility Watching YouTube review videos for movies and books Working out at Princeton Club swimming and weight training Zentangle

Card 1: “We need to talk. Can we sit down?”
Card 2: “This isn’t working. We haven’t talked in 10+ days. The cooking/cleaning agreement stopped. I need to know what happens next.”
Card 3: “I need you to respond. I can’t figure this out alone.”
Fix communication
Follow through on things you said you were going to do
Need to know…. What’s going on in your life
How do we do that in a meaningful way

1.) I’m giving part of an important presentation 10/23. Even though team has already agreed that I am the best presenter, I am nervous . Self Esteem / confidence / work.

2.) Philip has been near completely non-communicative. Not left the apartment nor barely left the bedroom almost. He is surly snarly. and an ass. I’ve given him lots of freedom for privacy, but I’m ready to call his parole agent to see if she can give me any hints as to what is up. Has he lost his second job? Do I just wait it out? How do I practice my tone and choice of words to have a serious communication?

3.) Working with Claude to examined decades of journal. New chat, so he doesn’t know how obnoxious he was before about demanding I seek help immediately. Periodic summaries, the number of times he says “You were unmedicated/undertreated ” is exhausting. I am enjoying and find interaction valuable. I increased my subscription level. I asked: “I have a request: while you just now have provide a detailed summary, what I need is a recommendation. I meet with my therapist tomorrow. He is aware of my work with you. During my meeting with CTK, I have 2 items of importance to cover with him and in addition I’d like to target a significant pattern, trend, insights from my work with you. The 2 other things should be 20-25 minutes of the hour and the remainder can be my “Claude” stuff. ” What, from all you have learned about my life, should I introduce in therapy tomorrow?

“We may not have caused our problems, but we may need to solve them.”

-DBT