If my count is correct, there have been 24 appointments with TK. This is the equivalent of one day. I was snooping through the collection of after visit notes and unfortunately, even reading the notes, I don\u2019t remember what was talked about in the beginning. When I speculate on why memory is lacking. I just come up with nonproductive reasons. It is in the past. Let it go. Except I do keep obsessing on how \u201cit’s been a day.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
“Today was a day. Tomorrow will also be a day. The next 21 days will follow this pattern. The calendar offers no exceptions.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014Unknown.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m not doing an agenda (for our next session). Not creating one has contributed to life being much calmer for the past two weeks. Normally I have a running draft which turns into a bloated list of topics. Was this change a strategic decision or merely a depressive giving up? I don\u2019t know. I think there has been a lot less anxiety anticipating the next session. I’m doing much better at repeatedly squashing the need to see TK. Sometimes the action must be more like a Hulk SMASH, as if feelings are ragdolls being punished. Maybe, just simple distraction rather than coping strength. Perhaps no time to be obsessing due to the full line up this week of appointments: medical, self-care, social, hobbies, informational. Yet, an alternative theory, perhaps no agenda is more about shutting down early, because it all ends at 2pm and stays completely gone for another big gap.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
If my count is correct, there have been 24 appointments with TK. This is the equivalent of one day. I was snooping through the collection of after visit notes and unfortunately, even reading the notes, I don\u2019t remember what was talked about in the beginning. When I speculate on why memory is lacking. I just […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[26],"tags":[35],"class_list":["post-183","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-processing","tag-dst-tk"],"yoast_head":"\n