{"id":341,"date":"2026-04-23T00:01:02","date_gmt":"2026-04-23T05:01:02","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/searchingwithin.com\/wordpress\/?p=341"},"modified":"2026-05-15T20:47:41","modified_gmt":"2026-05-16T01:47:41","slug":"february-2019-major-depression","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/searchingwithin.com\/wordpress\/?p=341","title":{"rendered":"February 2019 Major Depression"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Once, wanting to sleep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cNever do what you can\u2019t undo until you\u2019ve considered well what you can\u2019t do once you\u2019ve done it.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Usually this passage needs to be thought through multiple times to fully comprehend the meaning. I\u2019ve never been able to fully memorize the exact phrase, due to being a mental knot. But, I know precisely the advice.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I don\u2019t know why I\u2019m thinking about the passage today\u2026 the last few days. Maybe because the phrase has meant something special many times throughout my life\u2014well since I first read this fantasy triple-trilogy, by Robin Hobb. I listened to the full triple-trilogy at beginning of February 2019. For some reason, getting through the hours upon hours of book, was extremely important. The reading, via audiobook, was about visiting all my favorite characters. The plot includes multiple recalls to the passage. Over and over I thought about the meaning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"576\" height=\"576\" src=\"https:\/\/searchingwithin.com\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/ontask_2_white_and_brown_Abyssinian_guinea_pig_-profile_b4of_0a6500ae-b221-4882-9fd8-a51a5634609c_2a.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-405\" srcset=\"https:\/\/searchingwithin.com\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/ontask_2_white_and_brown_Abyssinian_guinea_pig_-profile_b4of_0a6500ae-b221-4882-9fd8-a51a5634609c_2a.jpg 576w, https:\/\/searchingwithin.com\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/ontask_2_white_and_brown_Abyssinian_guinea_pig_-profile_b4of_0a6500ae-b221-4882-9fd8-a51a5634609c_2a-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/searchingwithin.com\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/ontask_2_white_and_brown_Abyssinian_guinea_pig_-profile_b4of_0a6500ae-b221-4882-9fd8-a51a5634609c_2a-150x150.jpg 150w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 576px) 100vw, 576px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I\u2019ve talked through that day with Tim. Nothing to be gained to revisit the conversation. I did get some peace from feedback about the fate of Zaidan and Cruise, the brown and white Abyssinian guinea pigs.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Obviously the phrase is about decision and permanence. What is not directly included is regret.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">From Pi, \u201cThe core lesson? True strength isn\u2019t in power or skill\u2014it\u2019s in enduring with empathy, even when broken. Fitz survives not because he\u2019s the best assassin, but because he feels deeply, loves fiercely, and keeps choosing connection in a world that rewards cruelty. It\u2019s a quiet kind of heroism.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Attachments:<br>20260424-Homework.pdf<br>Task-Star-Board.pdf<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Once, wanting to sleep. \u201cNever do what you can\u2019t undo until you\u2019ve considered well what you can\u2019t do once you\u2019ve done it.\u201d Usually this passage needs to be thought through multiple times to fully comprehend the meaning. I\u2019ve never been able to fully memorize the exact phrase, due to being a mental knot. 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