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There is a frog sitting on a Lilly pad in an expansive pond\u2026 the frog doesn\u2019t know how to swim. Desperately he just wants to get to shore. The route, areas misted in fog, is a maze of calculating which pad to jump to next, estimating if it will hold his weight, and is he even going the right way\u2026 has he just leaped himself deeper into the muck or making progress out?
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A daily=I, hung up on \u201cdon\u2019t care what\u201d conversation, 11-15. Used example of not wanting to talk about my gratitude homework; to stay angry and withhold. Not as angry now; and really DO want to talk about my jar with the wood lid and the miniature carabiners\u2026
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In early 20s I learned top rope rock climbing in a UW Mini-Course held at Devil\u2019s Lake, a favorite place. Next, I advanced to week course through Iowa Mountaineer Club. Liked best, call-and-response safety check before a climber starts. “On belay?” \/ “Belay on.” \/ “Climbing.\u201d \/ “Climb on.” During course, instructor and climbers told me I had a natural ability: \u201cI should seriously pursue the sport.\u201d
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I was strong, fit, skilled\u2026 doing something I loved.
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Plans to go to Sawtooth\u2019s, 10 days
Organizing gear, getting sick=doctor
I\u2019m pregnant
At 8wk, hiked to the top of Elephant\u2019s Perch
Skipped mountaineering & rock climbs
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Carabiner not about climbing again. Theory: remember I was that person – strong, capable, naturally skilled, loved something deeply. Depression=that person is gone forever.
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Obviously, this is super condensed version of the story.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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