{"id":92,"date":"2025-12-02T12:01:24","date_gmt":"1970-01-01T00:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/searchingwithin.com\/wordpress\/?p=92"},"modified":"2026-04-23T21:28:09","modified_gmt":"2026-04-23T21:28:09","slug":"self-awareness-wk-1-of-52","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/searchingwithin.com\/wordpress\/?p=92","title":{"rendered":"Self-Awareness (wk 1 of 52)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Q10. Do you know what you want out of life?<br>\u00a0<br>This question is difficult to answer when I&#8217;m constantly reminded that I don&#8217;t want to be 70 years old. I don&#8217;t want to be 65, but I\u2019m giving myself a five year buffer in case I&#8217;m wrong and need to readjust my assessment later. The attempt to take daily gratitude serious is hard. I think about it, but forget to make a deposit. The act is not yet truly being done by me. It is more about following a positive suggestion. I have my container and objects in a visible and convenient location. Close by is the repository of &#8216;gratitudes in waiting.\u2019 I keep one with me at all times like a worry stone or fidget toy. An understanding is the practice can pull in more positivity, which can lead to life improvement and wellness.<br>\u00a0<br>Want out of life?<br>Wanting needs to be about possible.<br>Hopes &amp; Dreams are about fantasy.<br>\u00a0<br>In junior high (1976), a time of physical abuse, I was incredibly unhappy. However, I made a pact with myself that I would not commit suicide then. I would tough it all out until I graduated from 8th grade. Maybe high school would be better or different. Then high school started. Not what I\u2019d hoped. I don&#8217;t know at what point I reevaluated the pact. I decided I would not commit suicide until I graduated from high school. I endured. After HS graduation, the self pact was updated one more time. I would take no direct action until I graduated from college. I guess I did pretty good. 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