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  • Positivity and Gratitude

    Holding positivity and gratitude in hand.

    Woke up depressed. Everything seems enormous. Figuring out just three hours, feels stuck. Unmovable. So many possibilities, yet stuck. Stumbling on a series of sad songs certainly doesn’t help.

    Homework: “Work on seeing the good. How do we keep track of this, for starters?”

    • Keeping list of gratitudes with date and description
    • Located in BCT

    Seeing the good defined vs gratitude // point of view vs. warm feeling of grateful

    • Paul saber critique – great disappointment receiving
      • very critical, too long for me; matter of being glad he was available to give feedback?
      • enforced cheerfulness (positive thinking)
    • When all carabiners are in the jar, do I empty the jar and start over?

    Goals vs. Dreams

    • The idea: knowing the difference
    • How to pick one’s dreams and then making appropriate goals (Or do they pick you?)

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    • z values

  • 2025: A Year of Self-Discovery and Growth

    Marking gratitude across a multitude of areas.

    HEALTH & WELLNESS

    • Health: Released from needing to wear my daily Dexcom 7 diabetes sensor
    • Fitness: Transformed physical endurance through silly activity for a few minutes daily, leading to great changes
    • Emotional Health: Registered Badger as ESA
    • Emotional Health: Partnered with Counselor Timothy K.
    • Diet: Subscribed to Factor75

    PERSONAL GROWTH

    • Habits: Maintained daily journaling, including a multitude of intents
    • Hobbies: Explored AI companions (PI, Claude, Purpose, Replika)
    • Impulse: Invited myself to Thanksgiving dinner, TKB
    • Reconnect: Reached out to cousin DB
    • Sent: Christmas present to relative; parent said it arrived and he likes the gift

    MEDIA & ARTS

    • Art: Learned Blackout poetry
    • Project: Completed photo digitizing
    • Music, acapella: Discovered JaredHalley, amazing grid work presentations (signed up as patron)
    • Music, instrumental: Transported to picturesque landscapes through 40 FINGERS videos
    • Fiction: Devoured Falling in a Sea of Stars by Kristen Britain
    • Non Fiction: Embraced the message (9 Life Lessons speech) in You Don’t Have to Have a Dream… by Tim Minchin
    • Movies: Caught the thrills with M:I 8
    • Streaming: Watched Stranger Things Final Season
    • Comedy: Laughed at Ricky Gervais and Tom Segura
    • Remembrance: Mourned Robert Redford’s passing

    TECHNOLOGY

    *Appreciate software: Flow (dictation) after trial period purchased subscription

    For 2026 Already Started…

    • Writing: Work through the 52-Week OM Journaling prompts
    • Self help / life coaches: narrow down a favorite among Ali Abdaal, Matthew Hussey, Lewis Howes, Mel Robbins, Chris Williamson, Mark Manson — so far liking Abdaal and Manson the best
    • Workshop and Audiobook: The DOSE Effect: Optimize Your Brain and Body by Boosting Your Dopamine, Oxytocin, Serotonin, and Endorphins by T.J. Power
    • Workshop and Audiobook: Tiny Experiments by Anne-Laure Le Cunff
    • Workshop and Pre-ordered Book: Beyond Belief by Nir Eyan
    • Audiobooks: The two F*cked books (2016, 2019) by Mark Manson
    • Podcast: SOLVED by Mark Manson
    • Invaluable conversations with Purpose AI.
    • Gave a blackout poetry piece to Doug for his birthday

    Looking Forward to…

    • Therapy topics to explore: attachment styles, external locus of control, Wheel of Life assessment, Cast of Characters, and self-compassion practices
    • Hobbies: Explore AI
    • Crazy idea 1: Design my own AI and find someone to help build
    • Crazy idea 2: Compose outline for my boo: The Care and Feeding of the Adult Human
    • Movies releasing this year: Greenland 2, Crime 101, Project Hail Mary, The Odyssey