PWS called a multiple of times with the goal: status of deposit on book and to locate paperwork for his savings account. I never completed my script (my wellbeing, his wellbeing, let’s keep talking just not about wanting to move in, I love you). He cut me off early. Instead:
- Upset I called the PO; created chain of events that may lead to revocation of probation
- Annoyed I didn’t pay deposit process fee
- At the conclusion of one call, he said that was mean and hung up.
- In a different call, accused me of being malicious for my actions
- Said I was stupid for contacting PO, and… Wishes I had talked to him first
- Angry that previous conversations during 15 mo, I said I don’t remember many details and events he mentioned; yet I can remember a very specific event and Philip doesn’t understand why I remember one and not the others.
- Last call end: ‘I’ll call you… never'”
May need his bike lock key, yet unable to identify bike.
Small-thing-up-set-ting-me. The ticking: I am unable to expedite the outcome. Even the simple facts must conform to the unchanging pattern. Why is this topic continuing to get my characters? I resent that. Reality: great deal more to say; difficult feelings and plans to process.
After much deliberation, I purchased multiple storage (duffle bag style) containers with zippers and handles; I want him to have ease to search through later. Now, to pack. Philip knows I’m packing. 🙁
Feeling: enraged, deep sigh, despair, long for logistical closure