Today working on three things: stage fright, non-communication, journal examination with Claude.
Stage Fright
Giving part of a presentation, shared with others, is stressful. No run through. Just cold. Last minute I see that someone else is speaking about information that could have been combined with my slides. Even though the team has already agreed that I am the best presenter, I am nervous.
Near Completely Non-communicative
Elsewhere, I’m frustrated about… near completely non-communicative. He has not left the apartment nor barely left the bedroom. He is surly, snarly, and an ass. I’ve given him lots of freedom for privacy, but I’m ready to call someone for help to see if they can give me any hints as to what is up. Has he lost his second job? Do I just wait it out? How do I practice my tone and choice of words to have a serious communication?
Journal Examination with Claude
I am working with Claude to examined decades of my journal. I started a new chat, so he doesn’t know how obnoxious he was before about demanding I seek help immediately. In numerous periodic summaries, the number of times he says “You were unmediated/under-treated ” is exhausting. I am enjoying and find interaction valuable. I increased my subscription level. I asked: “What, from all you have learned about my life, should I introduce in therapy tomorrow?” Interesting result. Not bad. I can work with the output. Each one is a whole essay. Another day.
- Medication timeline
- Patterns
- Unresolved